I’m in a mood.
Do you ever begin to relax or have nothing going on that you get into your head and all you can do is think about anything and everything that has to do with your whole existence.
Sounds excessive but I know I’m not the only one.
I’m a deep thinker.
I like to have deep conversations and talk about life. I love hearing about others’ lives, their pet peeves, their greatest desires, fears, and dreams.
Sometimes when I get in these moods, the only thing I can think of doing is writing. It’s a stress reliever. That doesn’t mean I’m feeling stress by any means, it just shows that I’m getting into my feelings.
Want to know what I’m thinking about?
Okay, even if you don’t I’m telling you anyways. Stress reliever, so, yeah, you know how it goes.
I’m someone who likes to stay busy. I love having a schedule and an organized way of knowing what I am doing the upcoming week. I have worked doubles the past three days and had today off because it’s Sunday and in Utah, NOTHING is open on Sundays.
So, like any normal person would do, I decided to have a personal day.
This was my day. I got groceries, did laundry, took a few tests I had to finish for my job, slept, and watched Netflix.
I’m upset with myself.
At the end of the day, it’s nice to know that I had this time to relax, but at the same time, I also think, what could have been a better use of my time.
I’m in Utah for only three months, and I sat around and watched Netflix. That infuriates me.
I do work a double tomorrow so my instincts were to have a relaxing day today but now, I just feel like a lazy bum. That might just be me, but I hate it.
You know what I could have done?
- Go on a hike
- Do yoga in the mountains
- Gone to a painting class
- Gone swimming
- Hung out with friends
- Read a book
- Window shopped in a flower shop (I love doing this)
- Drove around and looked at the scenery
The options are endless and that is what I did with my day.
I mean, why not use the time I’m not working to really explore what this state has to offer.
Isn’t that the reason I moved here in the first place?
YOU WOULD THINK.
Right now I am doing the one thing I enjoy doing that also relaxes me.
Whether it’s a novel or not, it brings me joy. Getting my feelings out in the open and not holding them in.
I’m also a person that doesn’t like to burden people with my thoughts because lemme tell ya, there are plenty of them. However, I am that person that wants everyone to come to me for their problems and have the trust and friendship in me to be able to let it out and tell me everything.
If you don’t have a journal or a blog or anything you can get your feelings out on, have a friend.
My boyfriend is the perfect person for this. I can’t thank him enough for always being there when I have those times where all I wanna do is scream, cry, yell, vent, or have deep talks.
Right now is one of those times and he is in Rome sleeping at the moment, so here we are. I am talking to you people who take the time to read my writing which by the way, I am so appreciative of.
I write because I enjoy it and because it makes me happier every time I post an article knowing people out there feel the same way I do. All I want to do is be that person that everyone feels comfortable coming to for anything.
I will be that friend for you if you don’t have a person. I don’t say that out of pity at all, I say that because I want to get to know everyone and be able to help them in whatever situation they may be in at all times.
Knowing people are struggling with issues that I don’t know about upsets me and of course that’s dramatic considering I don’t know everyone but I want to.
This was a big reason I created this blog. I love reaching out and really getting to know people.
The real them.
So if anyone ever has any issues they need to get off their chest or just want to talk about, please oh please, know that I am here. Don’t think of me as a stranger please because I will be as open with you as you are with me.
I’m not here to be your therapist, I’m here as a friend and as a human being who only wants to help.
We all get in our feelings. We’re human, it’s what we do. Some may just show it more than others and that’s okay.
I have this dream guys.
I have this dream or goal per say, that everyone I come in contact with, becomes either happier or that my presence decreases their stress when talking with me.
How crazy is that.
I have no idea why but all I want to be is a healer for everyone. I don’t tell anyone this ever.
This is a big deal that I’m actually getting this deep into my thoughts right now.
I’ll probably write an article soon about a couple more thoughts I typically have but right now, I think I’ve maxed out on my deep thinking for everyone who cares to listen…
I know this post is a bit longer than my typical articles but I wanted to get this out. This is the kind of stuff that comes to my mind so often, I thought it was important to let it out.
I could probably go on and on about how I feel during this post but I’m not trying to bore you all with my feelings novel.
If you lasted this long, as I always and sincerely say, thanks for reading guys. I do this blog for my enjoyment and also in the hopes that at least someone either can relate or get something out of my words; makes them think differently about anything.
Hope you all have a wonderful rest of your Sunday if you’re in the U.S or Monday if your across the world. Come back for those daily quotes that I post. I’ll try to liven the mood in my next post but again, really appreciate you all for reading. As always,
Peace & Blessings ❤